the recaps and the wishlist.

updates; the only reason to - why i attend to Alumni Night, because i miss my poly years, my polytechnic friends and the theater stage. if only they asked pharrell williams and kim kardashian to attend and augregate the ceremony.

and i have to recoup my money savings back; after spending it to fashion and such. it's another SGD$465 to go.
and i want to spend time with murni-lek and nina-lek.
and to my polytechnic theatre mates; make time to meet monthly (nurul huda is the brainmaster of this idea)
and i'm in doubt; should i major in arts management or fashion management?

enlighten my life, God.

moneyless effort

it's when life has gone out of hand.

when it does not go your way.

let's put it this way.

i have no problem if the world is against me. but if you cross it, you will get it. fuck the fake and the sideline stares. i'm thinking that you don't even have the dime to save you living for a day. i'm going through this since day one and it don't deter me from pushing you aside. i'm no hustler and so are you. so please, be pious and be original. i hate dramas and i don't like your atiitude.

i don't really exert myself talking about my own hatred issues. but you're my bug. a dung beetle bug.

hello goodbye.

is it me, or my command on intuition is getting bleached?

i am not vocal with words and confidence; self-esteem is another doubt. but how do you define confidence? bravery without making any flaws in whatever one touches upon is how i would want to describe it. don't you think that reality is always a harsh truth if it's not going your way?

i don't understand you, cupid. you are always making me feel uncertain. i'm better off with labels and fashion.

i have lost some wonderful part in me.

this is entry number two for tonight. i've realized that i am not a born-jovial person.

atmos x Porter drum bag, you geddit?

I've read books like Laws Of Attraction and The Secret, and they both taught me one thing: it attracts whatever you are favouring in. And when that happened, i met new characters of all circles. Really intruging, i must admit. I'm not someone who can accept changes at a drastic measure; this is where i've not grown into a wise man.

"You need the moolah to tell others that you're a fashion icon. Don't get fakes."

I've learnt to be patient as someone asked me to; but this is just another "I-need-to-let-it-out" entry. (lorh!)

the short friday

see. red is just the IT colour.

fcuk war

i don't blame faith and the pre-written destiny for what have had happened; as faith will always be my discipline and strength. and every human has their flaws, their own shortcomings and their own mistakes. as for me; i had been dealing with whatnots and what-can-be-prevented-or-it-should-have-been.

life is a real test. there's no try-outs, no studying and no retake.